Why ?

Have you ever noticed people who go to foreign country and don't speak the local language, they ask for something they like and know. They get served something completely different. They end up making fun of the locals who didn't understand them. Well if you are one of those people , you should hear what the locals whose language you can't speak say about you :-)

Are they really starving?

Over 1.3 million people, one in six New Yorkers, cannot afford enough food, with queues at soup kitchens getting longer, anti-poverty groups say.
Is this really true?

What is Symbolic ? What is Real?

I feel a churning, I am infected with something.
Modern medicine is doing its best to cure me.
How would you meditate to heal yourself?
Is it all just symbols or is any of it real?

What is Love?

What is love?
When you say 'I love you' what do you really mean?
Do you mean I am needy I am in need of you don't leave me?
Do you mean I have a nice warm fuzzy feeling when I am close to you?
Do you mean I rely completely and totally on you, without you I am capable of nothing?
Do you mean you like my cock in you ?
Do you mean you want something from me?
Do you mean that despite my faults and failings you accept me and you will do the utmost within your power, while all the time never loosing site of yourself, to help me grow and be a better a person. That you will always respect both of us and do your best never to abuse us? Do you? Then I love you to!
What is it when we say 'I love you' ?

Selfish or Generous?

I don't think it works like that.

I am for some reason, seeing a lot of selfishness around lately.
Let me explain. It's not people taking things for themselves and not sharing. No, this is another type of selfless selfishness.
I first started to notice it in my ex, when we were still together. Now I am seeing it everywhere, I am wondering do I do that too? I hope not, and I think not.
Let me explain. A man collects bits and pieces all his life. Finally he has nowhere to put his least favourite pieces so he gives them away so he can have more room to place the pieces he likes. Every one says wow, look what he gave me , he is so generous..(my ass).
A man asks his wife if she would like to buy him a shirt, the look on her face is speaking volumes, she hesitates, he says with a smile, it's okay honey, not a problem, we should economise, or at least I should don't worry. Sorry for putting you on the spot. She then goes and buys him shoes shirt suit and as he protests he doesn't want them, she insists on buying...
A woman talks about how much she gives. She spends her time writing emails about how she receives pleasure but doesn't make time to go and see her son play a tennis match!
Am I judging? Am I being mean? Perhaps I grew up reading too much about the lives of saints. Giving for me, is something that comes from the heart. Yes I take a lot, I am a needy selfish bastard. However, when it comes to giving, I am not giving to make myself feel good. I am giving (I hope) because it is the right thing to do. Things are rough at work right now. I took a day off work so the ex could do something and I was to look after my son, She didn't do the something, but didn't tell me I didn't need to take the day. Okay so, there was also a concert we had to cancel for the same reason. I couldn't go, again because I said I would look after my son. The upshot is I get to have a brilliant time with my boy. My girlfriend refuses to go to concert alone, or with a friend, gives away tickets (not as a gift mind you, but so they don't go to waste). Now she wants me to have a row with my ex because she feels disrespected,. I go nuts. Ex arrives I tell her, I took the days holidays, she is greatful and had a nightmare day anyway so just as well....This was the expected response on my part. She is oblivious to the fact it was difficult to get the day off with 3 days notice and oblivious to anyone else being put out but herself. Why did I bother, well cause my love asked me. See there is a huge amount of giving going on, but none of it seems to be generous. That's it, there is no generousity of spirit. It's all for self gain and self profit. You can give what you like but if it is grudingly and goes against the grain and is not for the benefit of the other, why bother? I have a good friend comments here and as I understand it people give to charity to be with her. They give because they want something back. Why? Why not give just because it's the good and right thing to do? Oh yeah, because you are selfish right? Right? Or am I kidding myself ? It's like bad sex. Sex because you want it and bugger what your partner wants... .... I think...

Image

You primp and preen, shave, brush. You dress, you polish, you spray. You spend a fortune on disgusing yourself, on hiding your smell, on changing your look, on adding bits to your body and taking other bits away. You conform, you follow, you are no less than a sheep at feeding time. Why is our appearance so damn important and why do you judge me on mine? Why are you so afraid to be just you?

Regret?

Why? The past is past. What is done cannot be undone. There is nothing that cannot be repaired, fixed, mended, healed, cured, acknowledged, or ignored. Why do we waste our time with regret? Get over it or do something positive about it but don't regret something that is past. Regret a one night stand? Why? It was fun at the time. Regret the end of a relationship? Well if you regret it why does it end? Regret something you said? Explain it. Regret loosing your virginity? Get over it. Harsh amn't I?


NOTE: I had planned this before I saw a friends post but the PC at home is bust.

What is Terrible?

I am prompted by a comment I saw on a friends site. What is truly terrible? I am questioning our perceptions here. Our way of looking at what befalls us in life. Perhaps bestowed upon is a better phrase. I am also prompted by the notion of Dhunie Dé(people of God). To the best of my knowledge in the Gaelic language these are people who have Down's Syndrome.
Someone dying is terrible. Someone being crippled is terrible. Having a leg blown off in battle is terrible. Loosing a child, being raped or abused, ripped off, all of these are terrible. Many experiences we have in life are deemed awful, terrible, horrific etc;. But I wonder do we somehow reinforce the awfulness with our reaction or perception of the event?
I am not diminishing the event or gravity of it but rather questioning our perception. If we can change how we view these challenges bestowed upon us, rather than these awful things that befall us, would not the world and how we do our business in it be a different and better place?

Communicating

No one says anything but I feel completely pulled by them in opposite directions. How is this? How am I completely exhausted just by being in the same space as others?
Do you really think there in communication with the spirit world?

The Body and Soul are One

How is it that often, our souls show up in our bodies. People who are afraid of letting go of the past, become constipated. Young man in religious life who are not cut out for celibacy almost choke when they eat and need their food cut up for them like children. He literally can't swallow his lifestyle. A man who is outwardly calm and full of vigour, spends his time scratching his head in agony and worry as a skin condition betrays his true state of mind. Well why not, a woman who is aroused gets wet, a man feeling sexual gets hard. Sad people cry. So why not these other things. I have seen them. I watch.

Undergoing Change

I have had some weird body experiences. Last night I woke up. There was a storm. I told myself it's 4 am. My finger tips tingled as the thunder rolled and bashed across the sky. My skin felt like it was peeling off and my chakras where hot, spewing energy into the atmosphere. Finally it all died down. I looked at the clock. It was 3:55am

Chakras

So much energy has been pouring out of my energy points. Now my throat is a mess. My tonsils are completely swollen, but I can also feel the energy coming out the front of my throat. I am exhausted and tired. Conventionally I am sick. I have a cold or something, but on a deeper level I continue to ask where this is leading. I am quite cold and tired now.

Follow the leader?

I am lacking a guide, a spiritual advisor in some way, a shaman. It's a huge part of my life I have neglected till now and at present, it is screaming and roaring for attention. I don't know where it will lead. I am nervous about it.

What is spiritual?

What is spiritual?

Who Knows

This starts at a prompting from a friend. Who knows where it lead? Who cares? Just a change in style. A door to say things that others shouldn't read to spoil their innocence. Who knows?